My Lil Online World

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you, regardless of if you have a Valentine or not! Sigh... my goal was to make him be my Valentine but... sigh... you see whenever I like someone I never have the courage to tell them... or even show my interest... (and damn I keep forgetting money for the cookie! Grr! >_<) Oh well, there would be quite a lot of chances in the future still so I guess a lonely Valentine's isn't all that bad! Oh yeah and thanks so much my bestie SM for sharing and spreading the spirit of vday yesterday! =D

Had quite a busy day today... first youth orchestra in the morning which finished at 12:30pm and then Chinese school that starts at 1:10pm! Craaaazy!! >.< Valentine's Day should be a day of relaxation don't you think? Chillin' with your sweetie or at least your besties? Grr... today was frustrating. The violin part we had to play in orchestra was like, 1000x more difficult than difficult. You see, my problem at the moment is that, when I practice by myself or in tutorials, I can usually play the notes just fine. But in orchestra I just seem to get out of time a lot and couldn't figure out the notation and finger positions and stuff, probably because the other instruments put me off a lot. Sometimes I just want to be a drop-out and go along with the flow (ie pretending to play as a part of the orchestra while just faking it) - that's the easiest option, right? But the morals and ethics I gained from my past throughout my journey of growing up until now tells me that I mustn't be lazy and that I should always be hardworking and determined - and sometimes I just get really stuck.

Same thing with Chinese school which is just boring... I could totally live without touching Chinese homework but since this is my last year there, I keep feeling that I need to make the most of it...

So here am I, stuck on a lonely Valentine's Day. Maybe this is just a part of growing up. Maybe many of you out there feels the same as I do. Wish you all a wonderful, happy, merry (?) Valentine's Day with flowers and chocolates on top!